Her reason for wanting a boy’s body is that she’s attracted to other girls and believes the only way she can have relationships with them is by becoming a boy. This desire for a male body is intense, forming the basis of her dreams and sexual fantasies. Her reason for not wishing him dead is she’s afraid that if she does God won’t answer her other bigger prayer, to be turned from a girl into a boy. Marci tells the reader she’s not praying for her father to die, just that he’ll go away. One of the ways this story is unique is that Marci and her sister, for the most part, don’t romanticize their father, instead disowning him and calling him “Eddie” rather than dad. Marci prays because her mother is so crazy with love for this man she ignores the escalating abuse of her daughters. What night brings is a father who, while at times loving and affectionate, can explode in fits of violence, beating Marci and her sister Corin with his belt and fists. The reason for her first prayer is obvious. She has two prayers: the first is that her violently abusive father will go away the second that God will physically change her from a girl into a boy. What Night Brings by Carla Trujillo, who edited the ground-breaking anthology Chicana Lesbians: The Girls Our Mother Warned Us About, is the story of the life of eleven year old Marci Cruz, growing up in California in the 1960s.
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